magic

dr. marcia fieldstone: people who truly loved once are far more likely to love again. sam, do you think there's someone out there you could love as much as your wife? 

sam baldwin:  well, dr. marcia fieldstone, that's hard to imagine. 

dr. marcia fieldstone:  what are you going to do? 

sam baldwin: well, I'm gonna get out of bed every morning... breathe in and out all day long. then, after a while I won't have to remind myself to get out of bed every morning and breathe in and out... and, then after a while, I won't have to think about how I had it great and perfect for a while. 

dr. marcia fieldstone:  tell me, what was so special about your wife? 

sam baldwin: well, how long is your program? well, it was a million tiny little things that, when you added them all up, they meant we were supposed to be together... and i knew it. i knew it the very first time I touched her. it was like coming home... only to no home i'd ever known...iI was just taking her hand to help her out of a car and I knew. it was like... magic. 

meg ryan and tom hanks are silver-screen soulmates in my opinion.  while joe vs. the volcano was questionable, sleepless in seattle and you've got mail are among my favorites. 

sam baldwin took 15 months before he began dating again. since i always wanted a man like tom hanks, i think it's perfectly alright to take a couple months to breathe in and out, to forget how undeniably happy i was, and to process the carnage from the trainwreck-breakup that derailed two months before the final impact.   

the future with ny152 was a mystery when kathleen kelly split ways with frank and his typewriter. but. she had "the dream of someone else". i do have that dream, that someone will love me and not hurt me, that magic and happiness will abound, and that the mutual romantic and insatiable love will overpower everything i felt... and still feel, for he-who-must-not-be-named...

i have the dream of someone else, but i am taking time for myself. by myself.

therefore, man fast is now in effect until february 15th.