and life goes on

"you look good. you get a sense for how someone is doing when you walk into a room, and you look good". -my doc




i feel good. i feel happy.
{by golly!}
and it's not necessarily because i am smokin' hot {plaid shirt and yesterday's curled hair, oh baby oh baby}. if you took away the mascara and planned outfits, i would still look better than i have in months. i feel radiant. 

i think i've discovered the cure-- i cook. i exercise on a semi-regular basis. i shower and take time to shave my legs. i listen to music. i write down what i think and feel and know. i am finding myself in this rubble of life experience and miraculously growing. 

also, a great contributing factor to the cure is... man hugs. gosh am i a sucker for some lovin'. srsly.
i am not ready to jump into another relationship or trust just yet, but that irksome void is slowly filling. i have hope that there is someone else's arms who will feel like home to me, and that hope is more than i have felt in some months.

i can honestly say that today i am okay.
i am more than okay. 

we were what we were, and we ended. 

ce la vie. and life goes on.