not that i was trying to, but it happened. high stress and little food consumption does that, apparently. i was just a few pounds away from my high school weight and frankly, it was a little scary to me.
an eating disorder has always been a fear of mine. fortunately for me and my body, i can neither throw up nor abstain from food {because hello, i am cupcake queen} so both bulemia and anorexia were out of the question. the thought processes, however, were not. after i lost the weight unexpectedly and without trying i wanted to keep going, become oh so skinny. intentionally. somehow that would prove hunter wrong. somehow that would make me okay. before i got myself into trouble with these thoughts, the new year intervened and i made the resolution to eat health{ier] and exercise.
exercise does wonders, my friend. i have gained back a few of those 11 pounds but i am feeling fantastic. for the past month i have been at a fairly constant and healthy weight. today i ate three squares of chocolate cake {it is national chocolate cake day, after all} and i am a-okay with that because jillian michaels is kicking my trash. i didn't know i could physically sweat as much as i do with her 20 minute work-outs. literally, i almost die but somehow feel invigorated? ooooeeeeiii! wish me luck in my quest to get "ripped" or whatever. also, if you want a quick work-out i recommend jillian.
in other unrelated news, i'm going on a blind date tonight.
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i know i can't totally knock blind dates because both my parents aaaand my bestie met their eternal lovers on blind dates... so i'm trying to be open. i've never really done the "blind date" thing-a-ma-jig before so we'll see how this plays out.
i'm a little apprehensive.
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