ingrid

i feel numb, mostly.

when i do have feeling it's in the form of ingrid lyrics.

i still feel utterly perplexed and overwhelmed. but each day i get a little bit stronger.

So life moves slowly when you're waiting for it to boil
Feel like I watch from 6 feet under the soil
Still want to hold you and kiss behind your ears
But i re count the countless tears that i lost for you

you can't be the one to kill the pain anymore.

you let me in but then you slam my fingers in the door.

i've had enough but i keep asking you to give me more.

when i say that there's no way.

I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
I just want to be ok, be ok, be ok
I just want to be ok today
.....
Open me up and you will see
I'm a gallery of broken hearts
I'm beyond repair, let me be
And give me back my broken parts

You could make my head swerve

Used to know my every curve

And now we meet on a street,

And I am blind.  I can not find the heart I gave to you.

Sometimes what we think we really want we don't

Sometimes what we think we want we really don't

Sometimes what we think we love we don't

I want to change the world

Instead I sleep
I want to believe in more than you and me

But all that I know is I'm breathing
All I can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing now

I am in love with a boy

Manufactured to destroy

So I shall unravel my love

Like an old red woolen glove

I still feel you on the right side of the bed
And I still feel you in the blankets pulled over my head
But I'm gonna wash away, oh I'm gonna wash away everything til you come home to me

Maybe in the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back
In the future, you're gonna come back, you're gonna come back

Oh what a way that we died

Plenty of tears were supplied

My eyes are wrung out and dry as a bone

And I taste much better alone

We can't hold us anymore, no we've got to fold
Down to the floor, yes I know it's cold but baby our hearts have gone


But how do I know if I'll make it through?
How do I know? Where's the proof in you?

Baby, you've got the sort of laugh that waters me

And makes me grow tall and strong and proud and flattens me

I find you stunning, but you are running me down

My love's too big for you my love

My love's too big for you my love

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no

And if I was stronger then I will leave this show

And if I was stronger then I would up and go

But here I am and here we go again

Baby, you've got the sort of eyes that tell me tales

That your sort of mouth just will not say, 

the truth impales

That you don't need me, but you won't leave me