belonging and bare feet

"i don't want to belong to anyone"

....

"and I don't want to be responsible for someone else's feelings"

- nigel-

i don't lament being single. 

truly.
when you really think about it, it rocks! recall the barefoot analogy?{you really should read if you haven't yet}

luscious liberty, i tell you.

now, going back to the above quotation....how true it is. and how similar i feel.

i am not ready to belong to anyone. 

belonging. possession. not an ideology of i-own-you but the reality that you are giving up the rights to your heart. they hold in their hands your every vulnerability; that, in cause, gives them a startling amount of control. in addition to a piece of your heart.

which is why it's quite preferable they stick around, so you don't feel parts of you missing.
fortunately,

the heart compensates-- its kidnapped parts regrow,  like the liver. 

. . . i still have a void.
thus, i am not ready for any more belonging. on occasion i wish i was ready, but clearly, i am not.

and responsibility? 
overrated.

i can hardly be responsible for myself, let alone another human being. i don't want to feel guilt or sadness or happiness because of someone else, or have my own emotions make an impression on their own.

so, i'm staying barefoot

for the time being

&

thoroughly enjoying myself. 

{this picture has nothing to do with anything, but i loved it}