eventually

i don't understand the whys.

even if the head {one day} makes sense, my heart might never.

i have a lot of questions pending
 to ask the big man upstairs about

 when all is said and done.

{like the real story on the dinosaurs, why women are cursed monthly, & the necessity to create so many spiders and not enough good men}

there are several circumstances i wonder about, too...

a righteous desire is a hard thing to have denied, but at least i'm desiring righteously. 

eventually {whenever that may be} 
i'll understand the whys and thank heavenly father that what i wanted didn't come to pass, and even chuckle at the mysterious way god works in my life.

just today i smiled. things aren't so bad after all.

and i have learned that it is in the gorging of thai food and desserts, and in the wallowing of chick flicks and chats, that we make memories to tell our kids about, we gain empathy for others, and we treasure the magical perfection of first falling in love, whenever it whisks us away from rational thought.